Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Frayed cords and breathe....


 

So how do you feel today?  This is how I feel....

 
 
 
 
 




 


I am frayed!  Still usable, but dangerous...not dangerous of burning down the whole house, but definitely could shock or burn someone.  I just need a good repair.  

Frayed cords are usually the ones that are always in use.  They are really needed!  They are really used!  Probably several times a day...but they get worn out and need some rest for repair or they may get replaced!  Hmmm....  Anywho, I am a frayed, daily used, overloaded, worn out electrical cord. 

I get hot so quickly, and I am not talking about hot flashes; I experience them, too.  I get angry, hurt, fearful so fast that I, myself am caught off guard.  I want to shock people, but that is not what Christians do therefore I just quietly get hotter and hotter and I am afraid that I am going to catch fire and burn everything in my path.  Wrong!!!!  I cannot do this.

I go to God....for a short while I am calm only to get shocked from the outside world and then I feel the warmth of my sin stirring and flowing needing some Holy Spirit electrical tape to mend the casing and prevent an eruption that would register on the Richter Scale! 

There are promises from God's Word that I must not be believing.  I can believe for others just not for myself.  Hmmm....Cat mentality, Pride, Sin, Unresolved Pain, Unmet Expectation Hurt, Fear....sigh...

I think today I am going to go about my day slowly...not rushing.  I don't want to overload my circuits.  I need to pray all day...there are so many pressing needs that the throne of God needs to be upholstered with. 

Laundry,
                  
     straightening up,
           
            schooling lessons (Oh help me);
                           
                         just daily life. 

The never ending cycle of domesticity that drones on and on...but today I am going to take it really slow.  

I don't have to be anywhere. 

I don't need anything from out. 

It is gray so I think I will turn on the lights and brighten up the place a bit. 

Candles...

breathe...

music....

breathe...

chores...

breathe...

cooking...

breathe...

laundry...

breathe.... 

Hmmm...maybe I will just concentrate on breathing today.