I am sitting here at my dining room table listening to a musical piece by Antonio Bertali, sipping on a cup of hot Earl Grey tea in my favorite mug and thinking about everything I have to do. I have sooooo... much to do that I become paralyzed and unable to do anything. It is much easier to sip on tea listening to relaxing music than tackle the mounds of work that I see needing done around me.
Now, this does not mean that I will not do the work...oh no. The work will get done--just not today. It is Saturday. A day that I need to get some errands done and spend time with my husband.
I used to love lists. I made lists for everything. Budgets, schooling lessons, book lists, daily chores, groceries, errand itineraries, etc. I think I will return to my lists. I just don't want them to rule my life like they once did. If I didn't complete the entire list for that day...I would feel like a failure. I do not need to return to that scenerio at all. So, I need to come up with a flexible list that I cannot make into an idol. Just something to keep me on track and observing my progress through all my piles of books, papers, and unneeded items.
I really don't have to dejunk, clean, repaint, redecorate the entire house in one day. I just know that I function better in organization than in junky chaos. It seems that even my thoughts flow more freely within an organized and clean environment. I am sooo... not a free spirit. I sometimes wish I was, but God did not make me that way, so now that I seem to be getting back on tract with my walk and life...I need organization. Sigh...
I have some fairly big plans for my gardens and backyard this early spring, summer and fall. It would be nice to get things done in the house before I head outside. If everything is done inside then I can concentrate on the outside. I am excited about that!!!
Surfing the web this morning, I was able to find a few good suburban homesteading sites. This has perked my interest even more! :) Since we don't seem to travel anywhere...these ideas are being formulated into plans and I am hoping they will be glorious tribute to God, blessings to my family, friends and neighbors, teaching tools for my son and a way for my husband and I to work together. I will keep you posted...
So, today's family blessings have already started...beds made, house straightened, budget made, supper planned and shopping itenerary now made. I might throw in a new movie for tonight and some fresh baked treats. This is going to be a lovely day...God is good.
I am still praying for my daughter and if anyone reads this please pray for her, too. She needs a *strong godly older woman* to mentor her. That is my prayer for her at this time. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.